Feeling so tired…
My blogging hasn’t gone to plan this year. It’s been so long since I wrote. There seem to have been so many things going on, that have pulled my attention away. Today I’m doing a 15 minute writing challenge, and I am writing what’s on my heart. Hope it helps someone!
One is that I’ve struggled a lot with this year is fatigue and brain fog. Not sure why, if it was a post-COVID thing, or due to POTS or Crohns, but it has made this year a struggle. I hate that feeling of fighting yourself to get anything done.
Lately I’ve asked for prayer regarding these issues, and I’ve been taking more vitamins and minerals, and I am so much better. I’m enjoying life much more, and getting so much more done. It’s such a good feeling.
When I am fatigued and I am fighting myself and I can’t think clearly, I feel like I must be really lazy, because I don’t want to do anything. But when I am feeling good I love doing things. I judge myself so easily by what I achieve.
I am trying to change my mindset, to listen to my body and accept its needs, and to be grateful for it. Resting when you need to is not lazy, it is wisdom. I am trying to remember to thank my body for all the ways that it is a blessing to me, and to thank God for the good gift of a physical body.
One big problem I have is comparison. Other people accomplish so much – why can’t I? I must be a failure. Allowing myself to believe these lies only slows me down more. God made each of us different, with different talents and different weaknesses. What is easy for one person is a challenge for another. I have often thought how interesting it would be, if we could swap bodies and minds with each other, and feel what it really feels like to walk a mile in someone else’s shoes. Things that I think are virtues in me may actually be a cooperative body and mind, and things that I think are failures may just be physical or mental ill health.
Judgement of myself or others is meaningless in many ways. We are all running different races, with different equipment and capacities. I need to keep my eyes on God, and trust that if I run my race with him, trusting in his strength and guidance, then it will be enough.
If you are reading this from a place of fatigue or depression or brain fog, I hope this might encourage you. I’d love to pray for you. But know that you are valuable because you are you, not because of what you achieve or how hard you fight to get things done. Try to rest in God’s arms, and trust in his grace.
Bless you!
Hi, I'm Chris!
I'm an Australian Christian author, blogger and speaker who has published one book - Diamonds from the King - which is a book of stories from my life of ways that God has worked to bring precious diamonds from suffering, disappointment and confusion.
I'm a mum, granny and wife and I love spending time with my grown kids and my four and counting grandkids, but my greatest passion is to get to know God better, and to share his wonder with the world.
